"YEAH  I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH" 

You are such a weak selfish bastard! 

My hands are shaking. 

My heart is beating fast.

I saw him. He looked happy.

Yes he's happy, but i'm down. 

Why am i the only one sad? 

I've tried hundreds of ways to ignore this sadness. 

But the tears never stop flowing.

I should be happy, because many friends encourage me. 

But for some reason I choose to cry alone..